I feel like I'm out of flow recently, and it might be time for a reset but since I'm technically in flow with my ego who loves connecting patterns and analyzing every single thing. I might as well spill out some self reflection.

My recent thing has been letting go of attachments and accepting everything as it is, but it seems that I have one thing that's lingering underneath everything and that's my craving for deep connections.

Almost everything I've ever obsessed about has been something that has very deep meaning and the minute I feel like I figured it out or, that it seems shallow, I drop it.

I'm not too sure if this is my monkey brain that wants to be better at everything or if it's the collective consciousness that wants me to come back to it. I might have to do my cannabis smoking ritual and ask the bigger brain to give me some answers for this haha.

Just for some context, here's a quick list of the stuff I've been obsessed with since I was a kid to the present year, 2018.

  • Magic
  • Animals
  • Sports
  • Fitness
  • Computers
  • The Internet
  • Morbid Things
  • Pickup Artistry
  • Psychology
  • Relationships
  • Self Improvement
  • Website Development
  • Graphic Design
  • Filmmaking
  • Business
  • Money
  • Couchsurfing
  • Law of attraction
  • Awakening
  • Backpacking
  • Minimalism
  • Tantra
  • Bitcoin
  • Veganism

Well, I'm not sure if you can spot a pattern, but it seems like the items that are more recent (lower down the list), are a lot deeper/complex lol. I seem to like things that take a lifetime commitment to master.

I have a huge interest in people right now. It's been a bit tough for my ego recently because I meet the most amazing people on a daily basis and I have to let go of that strong connection for the most part since the people I meet are always on the go, living and discovering constant change.

In all honesty, I'm perfectly fine with this since I'll be doing the exact same thing when I start traveling. I'm actually confident that I'll meet someone that's on the same frequency while I'm on the road because that's how this thing works. On paper at least.

You put out a certain energy in the world and that's what you get back.

Fck, I had to remind myself of the fundamental rule of the universe lol.

So yeah deep connections seem to be something that's deeply rooted in me, and I'm not sure what that means yet, but I guess it'll be super obvious in retrospect lol.

FIN


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